`Saturday, March 12, 2005;__
i'm broken! i'm all alone!
i don't noe how to start but well i'm still gonna post!
my eyes were swollen the whole morning! yeas i cried so much
last nite! okay family problems! how i wish i m not in this family!
anybody noe the feelings tt i'm havin rite now? yea it sucks!
cos i'm crying rite now while i'm postin this. tok to my mum
and the 2 bros from 10pm till lk 12am last nite! lots of stuffs.
and i cried . ofcus my mum too! hais my dad only reached home
from hongkong at 1.30am midnite! hais this family of mine gonna
END real soon. i used to think tt i have a very happy family!
but i was so wrong to think tt way! a big mistake!
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anybody bother to give a single fuck abt my miserable life? NO!
i'm all ALONE now! i'm single-solo-alone!
i've so many problems left for me to settle to solve! i'm jus
an ordinary gal but why is my life so much different from others?
i cant absorb a single thing in class. NOTHING! esp the maths and physics!
i faill these 2 subjects! badly! i was daydreaming ,i was thinkin of the
problems tt i'm facing of now! as a result i didnt get a single thing to
my head! i'm hopeless! useless! dont bother abt me cos is USELESS!
i'm broken! nobody can fix me back!
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teachers always say ask frens to help u with the studies!
hey come on lah everybody got their own things to do
they got to revise for their test and all do u think they wud
give a fuck ? NO! they have thier own things to do, they
wanna do well for their own studies why wud they bother
to teach an idiot lk me? a totally MATHS IDIOT!
don't waste ur time writin 'compo' on my maths paper
anymore cos is jus so useless. i believe i'm the MATHS IDIOT!
i accept the fact, and nothing wud ever change the fact!!!
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veron i agree with u ! and i totally noe how it feels when
we stuck at the very 1st question of the maths paper!
and for most of the maths i got stuck in the 1st Q!
everytime when i do maths i shedded tears! and i really
mean EVERYTIME! cos only then i realised how helpless tt
was! and the hatred came across my mind! cos i hate myself
for being such a failure ! got stuck in the 1st Q!and i hate
myself for being such a maths idiot!
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don't try to fix me cos i'm broken!
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 3:59 PM;__